I'm About To Lose Control

Till this day, I struggle with control..or should I say losing control. In my years growing up until this point, I always felt frazzled. Where am I going to sleep? What am I going to eat? Where am I going to work? How will I get to work? When all those aspects kind of fell into place, then, I knew it was because my own will that I was where I was based on my own efforts. However, God just revealed to me that I was never in control, not even then. 

Pause. "What chu mean, God?! During some of those times I wasn't even serving you with my life like I am now?" Yet He reminded me of the infamous verse while we were yet sinners Christ died for us. In other words, While I was out "doing me", making plans, and trying to figure it all out, God was still working on my behalf!! Why? Because He loves me!

So here I am today. Right now. In this moment. Am I really where I want to be in life? If I compare my life to everyone else..well, no. Do my finances look all that great..eh they "aight". Am I super confident that what God has told me to do will come to pass...hmm ask me tomorrow! Why am I feeling this way? Because I am a control freak! I try to control the very a God of the universe to meet self made deadlines and emotions. What is wrong with me? Well as studies show, it only takes 21 days to build a habit, but it seems like forever to break that same dag on habit!! It feels like I will never be able to fully lose control! 

Now, This just blew my mind. If God can totally take care of me when I was not fully living for Him, why wouldn't He now when I am basically sold out?! I mean, He took care of me in the way of at one point I was working two jobs, with no car, on the outskirts of a well known college campus in Tennessee. My day began walking at 6 am to job A ,and ended with me walking home at 1 am from job B. Never was I snatched up, kidnapped, raped, or put in any danger. I can solely remember one night walking home and this man just sitting in the dark said "young girls like you ought never to be walking the streets alone at this time of night," yet he never got up. Brotha, never bust a move! He even did a creepy glance at the end of his statement. Years later, the Lord showed me that exact night, along with some other moments, and He replayed that moment when I walked by that man and He showed me how He had Angels walking right beside me! I cried that night. Hard. 

He took care of me then, and He took care of you way back when. So he can take care of us now...right where we are. Yet, why is is so hard to believe that?  Sometimes, we have to give ourselves a playback on what God has done, in order to move forward. Everybody that knows me knows I LOVE sports. So it's just like in basketball [Let me set this up for the Glory, ha!]..It is tied In the fourth quarter...20 seconds on the clock. The ball goes out of bounds, yet there's a discrepancy on who touched it last. Officials will stop the entire game to watch the playback...More than once so they'll know for sure the right team is awarded the ball. Those last minute replays can be very crucial to a game! They play a big part in determining the victor of that game! They don't give the ball to whomever they feel like because they're deep in their emotions (well..most times...Lord bless it). No! They know they review the play because they know it is crucial to moving forward in the game. Now, what if they never replayed that possession, and gave the ball away based on feeling alone. Victory may be given to someone less worthy.

Just like our God playbacks are very crucial to moving forward in our lives. Without them, we'd make emotional decisions about moving forward with life based on our emotions. Then those decisions birth consequences (giving short lived victory to someone/something less deserving) and now we have no control on how to fix them! Then we're on our faces asking or complaining  to God about how are life isn't going the way we want. Fix it Jesus! 

If you're like me and struggle with this area of life, Let's skip a step and just be on our faces and give God full control from the start. Then He will birth consequences that were meant just for good. All consequences aren't bad ya know? People equate losing control as a bad thing. "Girl, she done lost control!" "Honey she done lost her mind!" Well...if we lose control for the sake of Christ than that's not a loss, it's an eternal gain. 

I'm fixin to lose control!!!! #LetTheShoutingCommence How about you?!!

Loving you,

Chelsea Elizabeth

Biblical Refrences 

But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. (‭Romans‬ ‭5‬:‭8‬ NIV)
But you will not leave in haste or go in flight; for the Lord will go before you, the God of Israel will be your rear guard. (‭Isaiah‬ ‭52‬:‭12‬ NIV)
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (‭Romans‬ ‭8‬:‭28‬ NIV)

Good Friday

Today, I as a Christian acknowledge Good Friday. I acknowledge His death on the cross for me more than two thousand years ago when He declared that IT IS FINISHED. This day represents why I am free, why I worship Him with my life, why my sins are eternally forgiven,  and why I will ultimately spend eternity in Heaven with Him!

This day brings such a bittersweet feeling. It depicts Christ's gruesome death while simultaneously depicting His unrelenting love for me. I can't imagine my life without Him. He is the greatest love I've ever known.

If the darkest day in history can still be called GOOD than that should show how powerful Christ truly is! He is Holy, and although I commemorate His death today, I know I serve and honor the One True Living God every single day!